No matter what I do or say I’m wrong and he’s right,
I can never have my space or alone time when we argue or fight,
I get accused of cheating every time I leave his sight.
But Deep down he knows, he’s the only man in my life
It’s like he has a guilty conscience, he’s always in my fuckin business,
But I never did him wrong, I got the lord as my witness.
he gets mad when he doesn’t find anything, it’s like he has a sickness,
I don’t know what the fuck I did to him, that made him so suspicious.
When I’m out handling business I’m on his time schedule.
But when he does what he does, it’s kept confidential
he points out my every flaw it’s fucked up he’s so judgmental
but even so, I looked passed all his negatives, cause I know he has potential
I never felt so much hurt in my life, but I always chose to forgive,
Between the hurtful words, the pain I felt, those moments I never want to re-live.
I always stood by his side, I never played games or lied to him, god forbid.
Im sure he would have left me, even after all the shit he did.
I couldn’t ever hurt him, that’s how I knew this was real,
My heart used to be made of gold, but his wickedness turned it to steel.
He always knows how to reel me back in,with his crazy sex appeal.
I didn’t even know what sex WAS before him, he showed me how good it could feel.
At the end of the day, all I really want is for him to just give me respect,
Cause all I’ve been getting lately is a cold shoulder and neglect.
When I have time to myself, I just sit back and reflect,
Looking back in my past memories, ive never been treated with such disrespect.
You know your head is fucked up when you’d rather sleep your life away,
I’d rather be in my dreams than be in reality, cause at least I know I’ll be okay.
But as soon as I wake it’s the same old shit, just on a different day,
Sitting here wondering will I ever feel better?! Every day I hope & I pray...
Inside my conscience is eating me alive, and deep down I know I can’t stay,
Maybe one day god will give me the strength so I can finally break away.
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