Through out my life there’s been some highs but too many lows,
If you’ve had an addiction yourself then u know how it goes..
Imagine waking up in the morning, having to pop a pill,
Just to gain the strength to get up, tell me— do you know how that feels?
Not being able to get your own self out of your bed,
Do I want breakfast? Nah I’d rather a pill instead.
Cause if I don’t take my medicine, I’ll feel too weak and sick,
I can’t just lay here all day, plus who’s gonna take care of the kids?
This shit has taken over my mind, my body and my soul,
What are you suppose to do when a little tiny pill has so much control?
My whole life revolves around it, when I get up it’s the first thing on my mind
Doctors are barley writing out scripts, they’re getting harder to find.
If I need $ I’m gonna go out and steal shit, without ever thinking twice,
And when I’m done, I’ll meet up with people and sell everything for half price.
This is what my routine consists of every single day,
I feel so guilty telling my kids mommy can’t go outside and play.
It’s like I don’t even wanna do anything else anymore,
All I wanna do is pop pills and be in and out these stores.
It sucks cause stealing became another addiction that I don’t need in my life
My close friends warned me in the beginning but i never took their advice
Thinking back now I really wish I would have listened.
Cause the lifestyle I’m living now is like being imprisoned.
But when your high all the time, your not thinking about consequences for your actions.
All you really care about is having money for your pills— so you can feel your next satisfaction.
It’s so hard to ween yourself down & try to get clean on your own,
My family doesn’t even know what’s going I’m in this all alone.
I don’t know how they can’t tell, I’m now a totally different person,
My attitude is horrible, I’m lazy as fuck —everything has just worsened.
They say addiction is a disease, but i say it starts with a choice,
So if your thinking about starting, listen to your inner voice.
Not the one saying “ you won’t get Addicted man come on it’s only one time”,
Because that’s what addiction does, it plays tricks with your mind!!
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